I’ve had this post in my drafts for quite some time, wondering whether to post or not because I didn’t want to seem negative, but it is real life and I want to be real with you, as always.
Before I start, I just want to say that I absolutely love blogging, I’m so glad I started this little thing 3 and a half years ago! I have grown as a person (not just my biscuit belly) but the new skills I’ve learned and being able to have my own creative outlet has just been incredible, and I am happy with the growth of my blog and truly can’t thank you enough for reading my posts and following along this journey with me!
My blog has turned in to a sort-of-part-time-job, I work on it most evenings, every weekend and every spare moment I get, and I am really hoping that it grows in to a full time career in the future but with everything in life, there are ups and downs.
Right now, I’m feeling a few pressures from it! As I mentioned, I don’t want this to be a negative post, but I guess this is a little insight in to my mind of how I’m feeling right now/what it is like to be a smaller blogger in this HUGE blogging industry!
- Uploading new cute/cool/candid Instagram’s every day
When I get home from my normal 9-5 work, I browse through Instagram and see everyone’s new images from that day. Some days I genuinely have nothing new to upload. I have a scroll through my camera roll and see some crappy pics I took of last night’s dinner but choose not to upload because I’d just be doing it for the sake of it, but then get annoyed at myself for not keeping up with everyone else and not having amazing new content to put out there all the time! I recently spoke about my love/hate relationship with instagram, if you didn’t read it you can read it here. I try my hardest to juggle my full time job and my blog as best as possible and to manage time as well as I can. I usually shoot at weekends and then I have new content for that week, but it doesn’t always work out. You can read my top tips for juggling full time work and blogging here, which I do usually stick to, but sometimes life is life and I don’t! Naughty me.
One of the hardest/most frustrating things I find is trying to find someone to take my photos for me. I feel like I have to force my boyfriend to do it and he doesn’t really get it, so it’s hard to tell him that the 100 photos he just took… we need to do it again. I don’t live near my friends and family anymore so I can’t drag my mum or a friend out, I sometimes use a professional photographer but then I have to pay for those shots, if it isn’t a sponsored post, I’m then out of pocket. I’ve actually made a new friend in my new town and she loves photography so she very kindly helps me out quite a lot now! Which I am SO thankful for, but you do feel bit of a burden asking people all the time. I don’t have that ‘Instagram boyfriend’ on hand 24/7 to be constantly take photos for me, which would make life so much easier if I did.
- Trying to be a full time blogger
The pressure is REAL. Press days, events, blogger brunches always happen in the week when I’m at work! Even more pressure to be freelance so I can attend these! What I usually do is, book a day off work and have a day in London attending as many events/meetings as I can! It’s again, one of those things where you start comparing yourself to others thinking, if they can do it, surely I can do it too, but I’m a way off being able to do it full time! One of the most important things to me about trying to become a full time freelance blogger is TIME. You can manage your own time just how you like, and time is so precious!
- Comparing against the lavish lifestyles
Even as a blogger, I do think that more and more bloggers are filling their wardrobes with regular lavish designer purchases! I will admit that I bought my very first designer handbag recently, but as designed bags go, this was slightly more on the lower end of prices, but still very expensive. I saved up for a while for my bag, I don’t know how people do it every month! It makes me question, am I not working hard enough because I’m earning that sort of money where I can splash out every month? On the other hand I love seeing bloggers do it because it means that companies are taking blogging seriously and there is a career to be had! #GirlBoss!! I’ve spoken before about trying to compare myself against others because everyone is different but I find it really hard not to sometimes.
- Trying to do MORE, more and more!
Should I be posting more? What else can I be doing? What more can I do? It feels like my brain never sleeps, not even in a good way, I don’t feel like I’m coming up with genius ideas, my brain is just frazzled! If you stop, the work stops, so you can’t really stop? But if I missed one blog post, would people even notice? Probably not! Again, it’s me putting the pressure on! Because I have built this blog up myself, I want to put 100% in and get annoyed with myself if I’m not, but as I said, that’s just me putting the pressure on myself!
Ok let’s shut negative Nancy up…but I like to share my REAL LIFE with you!
I recently put out a post asking if there were any specific posts you’d like to see and I got some great responses so if you missed it and there is anything you’d like to see, please do let me know!
As I said earlier, THANK YOU SO MUCH for reading my posts, liking my pics, your kind comments and your SUPPORT, THANK YOU!
Sending lots of love